~mY wORdS~

..have been hibernating for few days..duno wat happened to me..dis 2 days..cant really concentrate on thins dats goin on..jus passed midnite..n now is rainin outside…mayb im expecting sumthing to happen..but it turned out to dissapointed me…sumtimes i asked myself, am i too demanding in certain cases..other den studies la…sumtimes i expect ‘dis’ n expect ‘dat’ to hapen but it jus doesnt  goes d rite way..its true dat "d more u expect d more dissapoinment u wil get"…but sumtimes it is jus a very simple thing..but it jus cant goes my way..a simple thin dat every1 can do..m i complaining?? my expectation 2ppl around me is really nothing…but y so hard..is jus things dat every1 manage to do..sumtimes i really dun understand..i jus wan things to b better…

haiya…i oso duno wat am i talkin bout…

…suppose to do my presentation preparation now..but i cant concentrate n dun feel like doing all dis things now..wat is all dis la!!! really frustrated…hElP…

i know dat im stress..n really need a break…but i cant hav a break now…i cant…really CaNt..class fr 8 am -7pm sumtimes..really feel tired..especially 2molo’s class..till 7pm..in between onli got 1 hr break..will die man..i oso duno how can survive 4 d pass 2months..i know dat i complain a lot..everybody oso busy..but i jus cant understand y v need 2 make ourselves so busy??? is dis life??? den life is really tough…my fren tol me 2day…our life here, so boring…everyday do d same things..go 2 class..cum bk fr class..eat dinner..study den sleep…really sien..i feel d same too…feel like crazy ,man…

sudenly feel like talkin 2 sumone now…but no 1 in d room..onli me..talk really can release bit bit stress wan wor…but wat 2 talk?? to whom?? dats y im here writing… ….sigh..

Im now waitin 4 my fren 2 cum..is a she..she lost her laptop las 3 weeks..n she lost all her info 4 presentation for wednesday..she din cry wen she lost her laptop..she stronger den me..cos d time dat i lost my laptop i cried like small kid..cried non stop..but im ‘ham bao’ anyway…:P..emm..

she stays in d 9th floor n im in 3rd floor..she wen up 2 hav her dinner..n my eyes r so heavy n my eyelids almost wan stick 2gether oredi..& she asked me 2 wait til she finish her dinner n open my door 4 her..oo…she is here to use d internet line..2 find back all her info…very pity la..hav 2 do all over again..n she gonna stay overnite here again,2 complete her work..n d worst thing is d line tonite is freaky slow..anatomy presentation..sigh…students here tak habis habis anatomy..histology…i oso LaLi liao la..hai…

duno wat time she wil b back…so i write all dis..my roomate is now having her nice sweet dreams…n now my room is so silent..dat onli d ticks of d clock can b heard..tick..tick..tick..seconds n minutes tick away…total silent nite sumtimes really feel scary, especially wen alone sitting down here waitin..waitin 4 ppl to knock on d door…late nite…at 12.15am now…hehe…okokok..dun scare me!!!

hey..fren..faster finish ur dinner n cum over..cos really feel like sleeping liao…hehe..tot of study histo while waiting 4 her…scare dat i fall asleep den she alone out there knocking on d door n no one answer oso very dangerous hor… :P..emm…cant sleep 1st…wait la har…wat shud i do now?? if study sure sleep wan…hehe….

..dis morning snow heavily..WAh..wAH..on d way to Uni can c many colorful umbrellas..every1 was walking with umbrella with thick clothes on..n i oso wrapped myself like ‘ba zhang’…but d feeling was good cos d floor was white n d branches of d trees were white too..but extremely cold..even got white air came out fr mouth…haha..n i looked weird in my new pink snowcap… :P..

but d ice on d floor melt in d afternun…d floor bcum so watery..hopefully dis yr wil hav white christmas..

aiyo…i shud not sit here n type la…its time 2 study…exam cuming ler…

waiting 4 a huge snow fight oso…hehe….shud stop all dis craps la…frens in CsMU jia you!!!! gambate 4 state exammm!!!!

….it was my 1st time, i did case report in a hospital…interviewed a 15 yrs old gal.. a little rusian gal…n i really speak rusian badly…tho i understood her..but it was hard 4 me 2 construct a nice sentence 4 her…hehe…anyway v had a long n interesting conversation…n she is really PrEttY…

well….think i really have 2 work hard 4 my russian n not doing my homeworks n revision las minute….tho i know need 2 work hard fr now but….i wont do it till d las minute… tRu$t mE..hehe..:P….~ "eta ochin ploha studen-ka" ~……

dis happened weeks ago…

one saturday..i went out v my frens..nearby railway station,there is a statue where there r seats around it..my fren tol me dat there was an old man sitin there 4 few days liao..

dat day it was cold…n the days b4 even colder..i dun really believe wat my fren tol me..but dat saturday v saw him on d floor…he was lying there motionless.. he was dead…n no body care bout it…even ppl sitin nearby had no action..

….ppl passed by d old man,onli take a look n walked away…ppl die of cold on d road is too common 4 them..d body was lyin on d place 4 few days..ppl around jus act duno…wat a pity….

i was on d opposite road but can c him quite clear..i stared for sum minutes..d weather was cold…but my heart even colder…life is really so invaluable meh???!! d old ppl here dun hav enough food n clothes wen they r alive n sumtimes their child dun even take care of them..cos they cant afford..n can always c old ppl beggin on d road…alone…squating in d cold… sum even cry n ask money 2buy a piece of bread..which cost onli 40kopec (rm 0.30)…

…life is so meaningless 4d old, here…

tonight d sky is so dark…last nite it was reddish..

my class will end 6++ almost everyday..everyday walking bk from class to hostel i wil sure take a look at d sky n "day dream" 4 a while..wen d sky is reddish in color..i wil know dat d next day i shud wear more, is a signal to me dat ‘2molo wil b colder..wear more,gal..’

wen it is dark in color with lot of stars…it makes me think of ppl around me..make me feel so warm n at dis time wil miss m’sia a lot… :P..d stars r bright..n everytime i look at them, d words in my mind r ‘ how r u?? wat r u doin now ar?? ‘….really wish can lie down on d ground n enjoy d stars..too bad..i cant do it here…wana go bk m’sia asap ler…

but 2nite d sky is dark with no stars…it looks so miserable…

emm…dis is the first time i write dis…hehe..jus wana share sumthin v all of u..recently i sudenly realized that Homo sapiens wil not know how 2 really appreciate things n ppl around til they found it missing…n dis kind of words ‘ y i nvr pay more attention on it b4 dis n shud appreciate it more’ wil b said…

most ppl around me oso like dat…even me…dun tell me u dun experience it b4 ar??… :p

…i think d words i shud apply 2my studies oso..sigh….exam cumin but always slack…slack..slack..dats y im stil here typin… cant imagin myself sitting down for hrs 2study anatomy n histology..how can ppl study 10-12 hrs a day ar???!!! im angry of myself y i cant concentrate on studies but instead of those thins datmake me down n kind of not dat important at dis time!!..HeLP!…. but xtually cant help la cos im Homo sapiens too..cant really control..