~mY wORdS~

2day…weather was good..not too cold…& not too hot..as usual aft lecture, we went for lunch…den we headed to hospital…aft few hours…back to hostel…

2day…reached hostel as usual…nearly 4.30pm..d moment i step in hostel’s lobby..i saw a table with flowers, candles and a photo on it..d lobby looked dark…silent…no tv is on..no mama-s sitting n chatting…but onli can c ‘dejuine mama’..she was talkin to a student…n she looked so miserable…her eyes were so watery…i can feel dat d tears wil drop anytime fr her eyes..i dun dare…dun dare to stop by n listen…dun dare to look at her eyes n face any longer…i afraid i will tears too…feel d grief deeply fr d bottom of my heart…4 yrs…since d 1st day i stepped in here…dis is d 1st time i felt dis..1st time i felt wordless n walked bk to my room….

ppl said wen d sky turns dark..it makes u more emotional… i suddenly felt dis 2nite…wen d water splashed on my face n body..it was warm…so warm..not onli warmed d surface of my skin…but it warmed my chest…my heart…jus felt like staying longer in d bathroom…i took a very long bathe 2nite…n was thinking…human came to dis world alone…by herself…n wen she left…alone too…all d ppl n things in dis world r jus to accompany her…to cheer her up..to put smiles on her face..n wat left behind wen she left?? name…reputation…memories??

she left sum memories in my head…fr d 1st yr…til nw…4th yr…she was owas there wen probs arised..wen my bed is too thin to slp on…wen i lost my laptop which i used for onli months…she asked n reminded me al d time..to lock my door properly everytime she c me…n changed d lousy door to a new 1 d nex day..wen my room was ‘infected’ with rats…she tried her best to help n kill them…tho she onli gave me a packet of poison…n arranged to close all d holes..but those things worked..den…wen our unit flooded with water during d summer break…n again our room ‘infected’ v rats..n wen they decided 2 confiscate our water filter…she was there to back us up…helped us to hide fr those big big ppl during ’spot check’…

tho she looked fierce but she was so motherly to us…our hostel commandant..she..she left yesterday..left us 4ever..n she left nth 4 us…but memories…